Cheesy, cliche letter to myself.

Dear Erin,
Someone out there is waiting for you. Someone out there is praying for you. That someone has been chosen by God to sweep you off your feet and captivate your very heart and soul. That someone is strong in the Lord. He is a leader. He is everything you need in a man. God is pretty good at giving you what you need, right? I mean, after 22 years of struggling and wrestling with God, the one thing you have learned is that He gives you what you need. There are men in your life who you want right now, but they are not what you need. (You don't need a man in your life period.) Anyway, they will not wait for you like this special someone is waiting for you. Don't lose sight of what is important. God is still teaching you patience, and this is one way of exercising some patience. Wait for that special someone. Don't get all bleary eyed looking out the window every day waiting for him either. Wait on the Lord instead. God is whom you should be focused on right now. I only write this to you to help you realize that you are worth waiting for, because someone is doing just that right now. You are worth more than what is right in front of you. There is a man out there worth more than any man you could get right now. Wait. Don't let waiting for this man become your idol though. Someday he will be there plain as the sunrise, but just like the sunrise, it comes in its own time. Don't waste your time on sighing over what he will be like or who he could be. Just follow God and consider it a wonderful surprise when you happen upon each other someday. God wants you to focus on Him right now and let tomorrow worry about itself. God wants what is best for you right now, and right now, your best is finishing your school in Galesburg to the best of your ability and knowing God more. Do this for God's glory right now. Serve God right now in the little things, and later, He will entrust you to serve Him with the big things. Remember to live by grace everyday and not by your own works. Remember that everyone is to be loved, and not just those who treat you with kindness and respect. Jerks need love too. God calls you to love the jerks, because frankly, Erin, you are a huge jerk most of the time anyway, and God loves you in all your jerkiness. Love those who don't deserve it, so they may see the face of God. Be gracious as God has been gracious to you. Live a life worthy of the sacrifice Christ made on your behalf, and when you don't, cling to God all the more for help, forgiveness, and direction. Focus on knowing God more. Really knowing Him. Remember why you fell in love with the God of the universe in the first place. Focus on these things, and someday that someone will take your breath away when you least expect  it, when you cast this worry upon Him. Finding that someone is not the end all, be all. Life will not suddenly become worth living when this happens. Christ makes life worth living, so live it! Erin, God made you beautiful. He sees your worth and beauty even though you never have. Even in your weakness God makes you strong, so what more have you to fear?! He has given you a purpose. He has made you a new creation! The old is gone, and behold! The new has come! Stop living life as an old creation and live life anew! God loves you at your worst. Only God is worth taking up your cross daily. Die to yourself and live for Him. You will fail, but remember that Christ never does. Jehovah-Jireh. God is your provider. So now that I've written all of this to you, you need to get out of bed, dust yourself off, drink some more caffeine, and do some homework. Do it for God's glory. Then spend some time thanking Him for everything he has given to you and everything he has taken away from you. Thank God for adopting you as His child. Go from here a changed woman. Not because you vow to try harder or do better. Trying harder and doing better will not get you far without a changed heart. But do this because God has changed you from the inside out. God has changed you, and by His grace, He will continue to grow you into an outstanding young woman of God. All the glory and honor and power go to God and God alone.
Amen.