Singing a new song

   This is a song I started composing in the shower today. (I'm tellin ya, my best work comes from the shower.) It was inspired by my frustration toward my selfishness, and my awe of God in spite all that. It's pretty simple. I'm not going to pretend it's theologically deep or that it will be a freakin masterpiece musically. This is just something that really came from my heart. It was inspired by how I'm living my life right now.
   I'm not trying to be flashy with words or impress anyone with my skills. I know that the lyrics are simple, but I'm a simple person, so I don't really need any of that. Quite honestly, I am not at all confident in my writing abilities... or lack there of.
   I'm mainly putting this out for the world to see as my testimony so that people can know I am not perfect nor pretending to be. Far from it. I acknowledge my weaknesses, and count them as opportunities for God to do wonders. 
   I have to admit though, after I got out of the shower, I was super stoked that the Holy Spirit laid this on my heart. I was also super stoked that I finally had a song that I wasn't completely ashamed of. It's not something I plan to try to get famous off of or even perform for people. This is mainly just my personal prayer to God from where I'm at right now.
   It's my cry of frustration with myself and a reminder of who my God is in the midst of my frustration. I don't really care if you don't like it, because it's not for you anyway. So enjoy it, or don't.
   As of right now, this is titled Work in Progress...

Verse 1
I've failed again.
I've been seduced by sin. I let my idols win.
So here I stand.
Shameful in your presence. Stained by my own selfishness.
I run away, try to clean my stain.
Forgetting You've already washed me.
When you died and rose again.

Pre-chorus
I do the things I want to do.
It's not the thing I ought to do, so help me Lord to follow You.

ChorusMy flesh always fails, but my God is my strength. My portion forever.
My heart always falters, but my God will never. He's stronger than my failure.
My affection always wanders, but my God still loves me. He died to set me free.
My loyalty's divided, but my God is faithful. His grace conquers all.
I always make a mess of things, it never means the end of me,
because in my song I'll always sing, "but my God."

Verse 2
I cling to you.
Knowing all the while. I still cling to my idol.
I cannot see.
That serving you means I can no longer continue serving me.
 So take my life. And let me see
My mess, my stain, and failure will be used for Your glory.


Pre-chorus
I do the things I want to do.
It's not the thing I ought to do, so help me Lord to follow You.

Chorus
My flesh always fails, but my God is my strength. My portion forever.
My heart always falters, but my God will never. He's stronger than my failure.
My affection always wanders, but my God still loves me. He died to set me free.
My loyalty's divided, but my God is faithful. His grace conquers all.
I always make a mess of things, it never means the end of me,
because in my song I'll always sing, "but my God."

Bridge
Oh beautiful tragedy, comparing my humanity with God's divinity.
In my sin and pride, I sent Christ to the cross.
But God demonstrated His love, when He sent Christ to die for us.


Chorus
My flesh always fails, but my God is my strength. My portion forever.
My heart always falters, but my God will never. He's stronger than my failure.
My affection always wanders, but my God still loves me. He died to set me free.
My loyalty's divided, but my God is faithful. His grace conquers all.
I always make a mess of things, it never means the end of me,
because in my song I'll always sing, "but my God."

...That's all I have so far. Like I said, it's my own song and it's a work in progress. This is where I'm at in my walk with God as of right now. I guess to sum it all up, I'm being stubborn. God is so awesome though. I don't know how He puts up with me sometimes, I can be such a selfish brat... but I'm so grateful He does. Praise God for never changing or failing!

Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.